When I Was

[epictaztical]

When I was 5 I wanted to be a astronaut
I wanted to fly to the moon
I wanted to escape earth and live in space
My mom tucked me in at night
And my dad yelled a little too much
But it was okay cause I was 5
And I had T.V to escape through

When I was 10 I wanted to be someone
I wanted to be famous
I wanted the world to love me
My mom kissed my forehead before she worked all night
And my dad's punches we starting to get to me
But it was okay because I was 10
Because in 8 years I could leave
And I had books to escape through

When I was 15 I wanted to be dead
I wanted to leave the earth forever
I wanted to give up
My mom wasn't home anymore when I was
And my dad's punches leave me knocked out on the floor
But it was okay because I was 15
And in 3 years everything would magically get better
And I had cutting to escape through

I'm 17 now
And I still want to die
I want to get high all of the time
My mom is disgusted by the scars on my arms
And my dad is too drunk and high to even notice me anymore
And it isn't okay
Even though I only have one more year
Cause there's no magical 18
It won't be okay
But I have drugs to escape through

When I'm 20 I hope I'm okay
I hope that I'm happy
I hope that I'm dead
I hope my mom will love me again
I hope my dad stops hating me
And I hope it's okay
Because I'll be 20
And I don't know how I'll escape
Man I never thought I'd end up like this

[Owen]

This is a good poem... very depressing but good *hugs* thanks for sharing it... I hope you're ok too

[epictaztical]

Thankyou:)

[Scott]

Thank you as well for sharing.

And I hope you are okay when you are 20 too.

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